the fact that Sam is already holding Cas up perfectly fine on his own but Dean still flails and runs over like a worried boyfriend
Dean your homo is showing
Anyone else notice how Sam also moves his hand from Cas’ chest like “Oh shit, I’m in Dean’s territory.”
And then Cas leans right into Dean as soon as he gets the chance, even before Sam’s hand moves
Did you also notice me on the floor crying?
Yes I did. You have lovely hair.
I think this is more about trust. Cas loves Sam - cares for Sam - but at this point, after the apocalypse having been started by the younger Winchester and the demon blood, Cas trusts Dean. Cas gravitates to Dean, this human who has made such an impression on him - in all billion million years of his existence, Cas finally feels the gravity of a human being’s tiny little life, the depth and complexity; he feels it’s pull, and is starting to understand what touch means to mortals, and why it’s so important to us as a species - not even in a sexual manner, but as a way to connect. Dean is not just a destined, fated soul in tupperware container, a flailing meatsuit grabbing Castiel’s own borrowed vessel - Dean is safe. His human warmth and touch are safe, comforting. Angels don’t seem to lean on each other - they stand together to face God’s enemies but they don’t touch. They’re sterile, unmoved by the needs of the one - hard as diamonds, indestructible weapons fueled by faith and knowing. They have no need of that kind of connection when they touch through their voices, a choir that joins them all, always.
I love that in this part of the Season, Castiel starts to realize why touch, even through vessels and bodies, can be so grounding. You can see it happen here - there’s no need to be touched - Sam’s got him. Dean wants to - Dean wants to be there for him, offer support. To an ANGEL. Who could probably break a fragile human being’s soft spongy body with a flick of his celestial wrist.
And you can see from his reaction, even in a state of near unconsciousness, Castiel, even through his vessel, wants that touch too. He wants that visceral connection, that blossoming of shared warmth with Dean, the relief of survival, the feeling that yes, I am safe now -
And then after a brief smile, he slips from awareness, because he knows he can trust them to catch him as he falls.
Katie asked me for some Cas… so I drew her cute little Cas and his burgers